Trippin’ (my) Ego

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I got a new assignment a few weeks ago.

Here’s the backstory:

I was feeling great. I had a comfortable office, a short commute, and to top it off, I felt like an expert.

I felt like I had “arrived”. I could spend my last decade of employment in that sweet spot of complacency.

Then my boss comes in at the end of the day.

Nothing good ever happens when your boss comes to see you at the end of the day.

I was being reassigned.

No office.

Longer commute. Different city.

New tasks to learn.

New people to meet.

Now I’m going to be honest and say that I really felt like it was a slap in the face.

I got real puffy.

pouty face

I was in a funk for a good two weeks.

I got physically ill. I couldn’t figure it out. Why me?

I forgot Who was in control.

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Through this experience, I have learned a lot about myself.

I was too comfortable.

I was complacent.

I thought I had arrived, even though my journey is nowhere near complete.

I thought I was humble, but my ego – that slippery little personality trait-it was still alive and in full force.

And that’s the part that hurt. Realizing that the issue was my ego. I tripped on it. I wasn’t as humble as I thought.

To be clear, I am enjoying my new assignment. I am seeing folks that I used to work with and re-establishing old connections. My commute is longer, but less hectic. I don’t have an office, but I get to engage with more people. I’m learning new things and my mind is being challenged again.

If I had continued to dwell on my perceived losses, my ego would have won, and my journey may have been short lived. By my choice or not.

Sometimes, especially as we get older, we believe that we shouldn’t have to change. That our lives should remain comfortable and our minds at ease.

That’s a lie.

Growth is necessary. What does not grow, dies.

So, I am adjusting to my new assignment. And my ego is fine. It’s not trippin’ me anymore.

I’m trippin’ it.

 

Proverbs 11:2 (AMP)

 2When pride comes [boiling up with an arrogant attitude of self-importance], then come dishonor and shame,
But with the humble [the teachable who have been chiseled by trial and who have learned to walk humbly with God] there is wisdom and soundness of mind.

Ouch. Sometimes the Word stings me, too.

Blessings!

Sharon

 

 

 

 

 

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